Long time, no post. So much for my no excuses policy. Unfortunately, I didn't forsee such a emotionally draining event happening in my life, so I was forced to use my other motto, of "Forgive yourself for any small setbacks".
Now I will admit that I still kept eating well, I just didn't exercise, so I didn't gain any weight back, but I didn't lose any either.
This upcoming weekend, I have a wedding to go to, so I am doing the unthinkable (at least to me), and trying a very low calorie diet for the week. And I have been exercising like mad! Of course, this is the hottest week of the year so far, so I think I have set a world record for the amount of sweat one person can produce, but after 2 days, I am down 4 pounds and my muscles hurt like crazy, so I must be doing something right!
The plan is to do the diet for this week, then go back to sensible eating next week, while continuing my intense exercising. I have a family reunion in two and a half weeks, so I have more incentive to get in shape. I wish that just wanting to be in shape was enough incentive, but I'll take what ever incentive I can get!!
On the inner finding myself front, I have been working on that throughout the past few months. I am currently trying to be more conscious of my thoughts and feelings. I think that in our lives, we tend to put up walls to protect ourselves (or at least many of us do), maybe they are put up after a particularly hurtful event, but then it becomes a habit, which we use constantly. That is the trap that I fell into, and I am determined to stop living my life hiding from myself. Unfortunately, all of this conscious thought is at times overwhelming which makes my walls become solid again. But I will persevere and keep trying to bring them down.